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Tuesday, 21 October 2008

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Crush Crush Crush
By Paramore
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Kicking and Moveing

Now that I'm 18 weeks along I can feel the baby moving around more and more and the kicks are getting more and more sharp. I'm getting excited and Michael s even started playing , and bonding with the baby I'm excited and I hope he's getting more excited to. Well that's really it. Besides I start my parenting class in a week and in two I have my 20th week ultrasound to make sure everything okay and progressing good.

Sunday, 14 September 2008

About 9/11 Its Very Touching

Okay I just checked my email and received this, Its very emotional and if your going to be Judge mental of talk crap about the meaning then don't post a comment Please and thank you:

You say you will never forget where you were when you heard the news, Sept. 11, 2001. Neither will I.

I was on the 110th floor in a smoke filled room with a man who called his wife to say "Good-bye." I held his fingers steady as he dialed. I gave him the peace to say, "Honey, I am not going to make it, but it is OK...I am ready to go."

I was with his wife when he called as she fed breakfast to their children. I held her up as she tried to understand his words and as she realized he wasn't coming home that night.

I was in the stairwell of the 23rd floor when a woman cried out to me for help. "I have been knocking on the door of your heart for 50 years!" I said. "Of course I will show you the way home -- only believe on Me now."
I was at the base of the building with the Priest ministering to the injured and devastated souls. I took him home to tend to his Flock in Heaven. He heard my voice and answered.

I was on all four of those planes, in every seat, with every prayer. I was with the crew as they were overtaken. I was in the very hearts of the believers there. Comforting and assuring them that their Faith has saved them.

I was in Texas, Kansas, London. I was standing next to you when you heard the terrible news. Did you sense Me? I want you to know that I saw every face. I knew every name-though they did NOT all know Me. Some met me for the first time on the 100th floor. Some sought me out in their last breath. Some couldn't hear me calling to them throughout the smoke and flames, "Come to Me...this way...take my hand." Some chose, for the final time, to ignore Me. But, I was there.

I did not place you in the Tower that day--you may not know why, But I DO. However, if you were there in that explosive moment in time, would you have reached for Me? September 11, 2001, was not the end of the journey for you. But someday your journey will end. And I will be there for you as well. Seek Me now while I may be found. Then, at any moment, you know you are "ready to go." I will be in the stairwell of your final moments.

God

Saturday, 13 September 2008

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Lipstick on the Mirror
By Pop Evil
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Pissed Off

All I wanted was for you to actually give a shit, but you can't. Everyone else will always come before me and everyone else will always be more important. You can' tell me I'm beautiful, Why, because your dating me, who give a shit. I'm sick of always being there for you and you can't simply offer the same when I need you too the most. Talk to me, Listen to me offer up your opionins. Cry with me, Laugh with me and sing the same song I sing to escape.
You sit there and act like your better than me and that i owe you everything but really with out me your nothing so you say but even that seems to be a lie. Yes I admit I have made some mistakes in our relationship but you don't care why you insist that you are perfect and that nothing is your fault when everything i do is so that you would notice or even care,But sadly you don't. You'll never respect me and you'll never truly know what it mean to hurt like I do. You are the one that hold all the power and you are the one that holds my heart, but for some reason you can't see or feel my pain.
I miss the you that I feel in love with I barely see him anymore and that hurts cause he was my best friend. You promised that you would treat me like the princess that I was instead I just constantly hurt and I wait to see if you would even notice or even see through my lies when you ask whats wrong. Everyone will always be prettier than me and everyone will always be fooled by the fake smile I plant on my face but really behind it all I'm dieing to tell you and the World to FUCK OFF for just one day.
For one day I would like to feel in control of my emotions and in control of my happiness and future but I know that day will never come so please, watch as this mask fools you and make you laugh because deep down inside I'm crying and waiting to see who will actually step up and notice and rescue me from the nightmare that I call myself.

F.Y.I I'm venting everything I been feeling and everything I continue to lock up.

Monday, 08 September 2008

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One of the Boys
By Katy Perry
One Of The Boys
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So Freaking Tired

Tired:Well today like usual I'm freaking tired it seems that no matter how long I sleep I could still go back to sleep. I woke up at 3pm and was ready for bed by 6pm. Part of being pregnant I know but I'm tired of hearing everyone's shit about me being tired it ridiculous. I'm just always so drained and something tell me the further along I get the more tired I'm gonna be.

My Job: Well, let me start by saying I babysit 4 girls ages 4months, 2 yrs, 3 yrs, 6yrs. There good the 3 year old the one who's a hand full constantly in the corner on in trouble. On top of that there been some finical problem so I haven't been payed but maybe once through out this whole month. I'm always wanted when there's really no reason I need to be there. I feel like I'm constantly being taken advantage of and I hate it I want to Quit and be like "Fuck You!!!!!, Find another Bitch" but I need the money.

Sunday, 07 September 2008

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Coco
By Colbie Caillat
Tailor Made
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Welcome: Well today I cleaned my Bf room well our room and the a craving that been bugging me for days (Krispy Kreme doughnut) was finally meet.But besides the point I watched this new season/series called turBlood awesome I must say I loved every moment of it I found that I couldn't even leave my seat to go to the bathroom. And Let me tell that was hard considering me being prego lol. So anyways hopefully I will be able to update my blogs every saturday and sunday. Favorite quote in TruBlood: (Prep)Fuck you billie Bob ("billie Bob") Fuck Me, No fuck you,first I'm gonna fuck ya and then I'm gonna eat ya ( Fangs come out)
Being Pregnant: Well at first it was hard to tell my family and everyone else considering the long story behind it all, but in the end its wonderful I'm enjoying it a lot. My mom is beside me now and being very supportive and that helps alot and my younger sister is cool with the idea now. My friends have been very good to me through everything I am really greatful for everyones help and acceptance. My Boyfirends the best he's taking time to wrap his head around everything but all in all he's been there for me and for that i owe him my all. He's my everything and nothing will ever change that.
Drama: wow drama I tell seems to follow you outside of high school and get worse as the years go by, well the rest of this year and on I'm not dealing with it or putting up with it already cused out one person who thought they could drag me into shit and everyone els who's talking shit can Kiss my ass I don't need your opions of me to live my life nor do I care what your small ignorant minds think of me. So Fuck all the Haters and the back Stabbers I'm through with it.

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- Birthday: 10/8/1986
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Hey, My Names Alex but everyone calls me shorty for short. I am exoecting my first child in March 09 very excited about that. I'm very outgoing but at times I can be very shy. My mom will often call me a daydreamer but I'm just a true romantic and believe in Love at first sight, Fate,and Karma.I long for a story book ending and wait patiently for my prince to come. I've never needed a reason to smile. stupid things make me laugh. In my free time I like to write poetry, draw, and listen to music. My friends would probably describe me as the life of the party, my enemies would describe me as a bitch. I try to be honest and forward. I love to have fun and try to go wherever the wind will take me. I love simple things like the best kind of kiss is unexpected,unexplained and happens in the middle of a sentence,Longing for that one person to leave me breathless again, Love to dance for no reason at all in my underwear or at the club( not in my under wear lol), reads and draws to escape , can